Only in a Glimpse...
I guess I was a bit premature in my last entry.
まぁ、先の更新は糠喜びになったようだ。

Last time I wrote at the end that I got a call back to be hired for a job, which would secure my spot here for at least another year.
「P.s.」の部分には、仕事を得て、東京に住み続けると言っていた。

I was so excited; I went to the office the next day for 5 hours of training and going through contracts and rules and all this other stuff.
ものすごく嬉しかった。
次の日、一日中のトレーニングで、コントラクト等をしました。

Then this morning I was to come back for my second full day of training before I started working for real, only to find that my boss was late and only a receptionist was there...
今日は、午前10時、もっとトレーニングのために会社に行ったが、部長がいなかった。
受付嬢だけがいるので、部長に待っていた…

I waited for about 15 minutes, when finally my boss showed up....only to tell me I don't have a job anymore.... (-_-;)
15分ぐらい待って、ついに部長が到着したが、
私に「本当にごめんね。バッドニュースがある…今からここに働けない……」と言っていた。

Apparently there was an over night crisis resulting in the company having to lay off employees, and I was the first one to be let go since I was the brand new person who just got hired.
昨日の夜、部長は社長から電話してくれて、会社の中に大きなクライシスが上げていて、色々な雇人が解雇ならなくちゃいけない。
だから、私は一番新しい雇人なので、もう解雇しまいました。

I guess its not a complete loss seeing as I never even got the chance to actually work yet, but its devastating to go through a lengthy training session and think you're finally starting something in your life that will insure you to be able to actually provide for yourself...
今から一からやり直さなくちゃいけないんです。
先日から「本当にうれしいなあ!ついに、自分のことに資金を出す!」と考えちゃった。。。

Anyway, I don't mean to complain or anything-- it was just that I wrote earlier about getting hired and being excited about it, so I needed to blow off a bit of steam with this let down.
兎に角、今、寂しいですが、
頑張り続けてみる…

So, I guess its back to the drawing board...although I'm a bit worried now that this time could truly mean I need to go back to the US. I do actually enjoy living in the US, but Japan had always been my dream and since I've been here for nearly 4 years now, I really would like to continue the life I already built here.
そう、今から仕事を見つけたらいいんですが、
出来なければ、今回、本当の「さようなら、日本」になるでしょう。。。
出たくないんですが…(;~;)


Hopefully something good will come this way.
良いことを起こることを祈りします。



Sarah